Lets just say

I was once asked a question...
What was it that made me who i am?

I could have given a simple answer such as to say the love and support of my family and friends, but that was a unsettling answer to me. I felt that a more thorough answer would be much more satisfying. Although this answer was for the person of whom the question belonged to, i found myself being the one who really needed to hear and understand it. If not for the sake of putting my heart to rest then for the sake of my sanity.
With many thoughts and puzzles in my head, finding the right words was a difficult task, but it alway is.
Stepping back and with head bowed as if i was ready to pray, i inhaled the answer. I tasted it on my tongue. A quite bitter taste but as clear as stilled water. And i exhaled the truth. this is what i said...
Lets just say it was all those times that i had to fight. It was the time that i was stuck in the dark and could not find the light. It was all the pain, misery, depression, and loss of chemistry. Lets just say it was all the lies. No truth could be found no matter how hard tried. Lets just say that all those that put me through hell mean the most to me. That i thank everyone for partaking in my agony. Lets just say that if i was to go back in time i wouldnt change a thing. No im not sayin that i loved the devilish game. But lets just say this... I learned to catch my self when i fall. To stay strong and create my own light in the dark. To scream out loud when all is silenced. To fear nothing but fear itself.
with all that was spoken in such a quick moment i hoped that this person understood. For with a tear running down my face, i did. And to to myself i quietly said, lets just say im happy.